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Music Monday: Albertine by Brooke Fraser

For the past month, I have been at a cross-roads, struggling to discern my own desire from God’s and my own fear from the Spirit of wisdom. And my decision has only been compounded by my mom’s fears. As I wrote in a previous post, I have had a tendency to identify with my mother, and because of that, I have to a certain extent struggled to become my own person, to become what I would consider fully independent. But that said, I also don’t want to choose one road due to some subconscious desire to rebel or break free.

Maybe all of this would make better sense if I am more explicit. Haha. So, in early April, I received an email about an opportunity to go to Haiti. Of course, I was absolutely psyched! I immediately emailed one of the directors for  more information on the program, but he never answered me back. After a few more inquiries with no replies, I wrote it of as an impossibility and forgot about it. A month later, I received another email about the program from another school department and this time the directors of the program would be visiting to hold a meeting about the program. After learning more about it, I decided I wanted to go! The program is not related to any of my immediate academic interests (health, health care), but would still give me the opportunity to interact with native Haitians, learn about their experiences living in Haiti, and improve my Haitian Creole (very important!). In fact, I’m hoping that 1) independently continuing on in my Haitian Creole textbooks + 2) 3-weeks of practice with native Haitians will allow me to skip the second level of Haitian Creole and go on to the third! (Here’s hoping.) Besides language, it may also help me further develop a non-profit idea that God gave me a few weeks ago.

So when I don’t think about the potential danger, I am so excited to go. I have been able to bring my mom on-board, but I can tell she is still very concerned. But I just don’t want my fear to limit me. I feel like I am so fearful of… everything, practically! And that is no way to live. Since high school, I have had an immense desire to work abroad with communities in extreme poverty. But over the years, I have seen that goal uprooted by fear. My mom has had angst about this goal and has pushed me to consider staying in the US instead. Her reasons are sound:  “There is so much poverty here. People need help here. Why are you running to another country when people in your own country are in need?” Logically, that makes perfect sense to me. But it doesn’t erase the pang in my heart to do something for those abroad. I feel like I need an experience in order to confirm either God’s calling for me to serve abroad or His intention for me to serve populations in the US. I just don’t want fear to usurp the decision and rob me of clarity.

Last night, I shared some of this with an old friend who I haven’t seen in… at least 2 years! We had a wonderful conversation. And I realized how much I have changed as a person through my conversation with her. I am so much more open and talkative now… but I’ll spare you details on that. Maybe for another post 🙂 But, yes… our conversation was so encouraging. She went to Haiti last year and was able to share about her emotional transition to living/working in the country. It was especially comforting to me that she could relate to my expressed desire to have an experience to call my own, one that would positively challenge me to grow and become independent, and one that would give me clarity on where to go from here (international vs. domestic). After listening, she strongly encouraged me to go and embrace this opportunity. When I push the fear aside, I feel that it is the right thing for me to do and I believe that it will be a positive experience for me.

So what does all of this have to do with Music Monday? Well, last night my friend told me about Brooke Fraser’s solo album, Albertine. You brothers and sisters out there may know Brooke from Hillsong United. She’s the front-woman for the songs “None But Jesus” and “Lord of Lords.” Well her solo album is absolutely beautiful and I have especially fallen in love with the title track, “Albertine.” In 2005, Brooke went to Rwanda to work with World Vision. In her visit to a Rwandan orphanage, she met Albertine, a young girl who was orphaned by the 1993-94 Rwandan genocides. This song is a promise to Albertine and this album is dedicated to her.

This song (especially the chorus) expresses my exact sentiments about engaging work in the international community. After learning about disparity, how can you just sit down and do nothing? And in doing nothing, how is your mind not plagued by the truth and how are you not guilted by your unwillingness to do your part to help?

I have a dear friend at school who seems fascinated by my interest in Haiti. Because I have no direct connection to the country, he cannot understand why I feel compelled to help them. Akin to Brooke’s chorus, because I know the history of injustice the country has experienced and know of the extreme poverty that millions of Haitians live daily, poverty that their parents lived and their parents before them, and poverty that their children will have no choice but to endure… how can I not be responsible to do something? I may not have seen this (yet) with my naked eyes, but isn’t the knowledge that it exists enough to be mobilized to do my part?


I am sitting still
I think of Angelique
Her mother’s voice over me
And the bullets in the wall where it fell silent
And on a thousandth hill, I think of Albertine
There in her eyes what I don’t see with my own


Now that I have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead
Now that I have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are

I am on a plane across a distant sea
But I carry you in me
and the dust on, the dust on, the dust on, the dust on, the dust on my feet


I will tell the world, I will tell them where I’ve been
I will keep my word
I will tell them Albertine


I am on a stage, a thousand eyes on me
I will tell them, Albertine
I will tell them, Albertine

Tabs“Albertine” @

Hillsong United – “Soon” Lyrics

Such a beautiful song of hope and anticipation of what we children of God have to look forward to experiencing. Come, Lord Jesus, come. And please come SOON!


Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Clothed in righteousness
And crowned with Love
When I see Him I shall be made light again
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon,
I’ll be going
To the place He has
Prepared for me
Then I stand amazed
My sin forgotten
Soon and very soon

I will be
With the one I love
With unveiled face I’ll see Him
Then my soul
Will be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders
‘Round the throne
At His feet I lay
My crimes, my worship
Soon and very soon


Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ, the Lord, the Lord of Heaven


Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon

NEW ALBUM RELEASE: Hillsong United – [a_CROSS//the_EARTH]: Tear Down the Walls

Hillsong United - Across the Earth:  Tear Down the Walls

YAY!!! I am SO excited! Hillsong United released a new album TODAY! May 26, 2009. I’ve only listened to a few songs, but so far it’s wonderful praise, as we always expect from them! I especially love “Freedom to Live” and “King of All Days.” – “I run to the arms of love” – Ah! I love it! You gotta check ’em out. 🙂

The album is available for download on Amazon or on iTunes.

Or, if you want to listen to the songs before downloading, you can hear all the tracks here: Hillsong United on Hear It First

ALSO – Hillsong United is giving away free downloads of one of their tracks:  “No Reason to Hide” You can also download the chord chart and ringtone 🙂 They email it to you.

I pray you are blessed!!!

Worship of the Day: “Divine Romance” by Phil Wickham

the fullness of Your grace is here with me
the richness of Your beauty is all i see
the brightness of Your glory has arrived
in your presence, God, i am completely satisfied

for You i sing, i dance
rejoice in this divine romance
lift my heart and my hands
to show my love

a deep, deep flood; an ocean flows from you
a deep, deep love; yeah, it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood has washed my guilty life
in Your presence, God, i am completely satisfied

for You i sing, i dance
rejoice in this divine romance
lift my heart and my hands
to show my love

~ Phil Wickham, “Divine Romance,” Phil Wickham

“What Would Life Be Like?” by Big Daddy Weave

Have you surrendered to Him today?

He made the lame walk,
And the dumb talk,
He opened blinded eyes to see,
That the sun rises on His times,
Yet He knows our deepest desperate needs!
And the world waits while His heart aches
To realize the dream.
I wonder what life would be like if
we let Jesus live through you and me!

“By Your Side” – Tenth Avenue North

God is so good. I’m going through a period of brokenness right now and I really needed this song. I found it randomly last night while listening to a stream of music on Imeem and have had it on repeat ever since! 🙂 I hope you enjoy and are blessed!

why are you striving these days?
why are you trying to earn grace?
why are you crying?
let me lift up your face
just don’t turn away

why are you looking for love?
why are you still searching
as if i’m not enough?
to where will you go, child?
tell me, where will you run
to where will you run?

’cause i’ll be by your side wherever you fall
in dead of night, whenever you call
and please don’t fight
these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

look at these hands at my side
they swallowed the grave on that night
when i drank the world’s sin
so i could carry you in
and give you life
i wanna give you life

and i’ll by your side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight

’cause I, I love you!
and i want you to know!
that I, yeah, I love you!
I’ll never let you go!
No! No!

and I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side, wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side
my hands are holding you

Danyew – Full EP Released Today!!! 4/21

Today is a gooood day because today is the day that Danyew released his full EP album! That’s right, 3 more songs. In addition to “Beautiful King,” “Streetlight,” and “Close Your Eyes” (which were all talked about in previous posts), we are blessed with “Closer We Are,” “Nothing Without You,” and “Turnstile.” All 6 songs are on the album:

The newest tracks can be downloaded @ (click the picture for the link) and  iTunes, or you can buy the CD from Family Christian Stores.

Danyew’s newest releases are absolutely great. I am so excited to add them to my music collection. I hope you are blessed by them too!!