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Music Monday: Albertine by Brooke Fraser

For the past month, I have been at a cross-roads, struggling to discern my own desire from God’s and my own fear from the Spirit of wisdom. And my decision has only been compounded by my mom’s fears. As I wrote in a previous post, I have had a tendency to identify with my mother, and because of that, I have to a certain extent struggled to become my own person, to become what I would consider fully independent. But that said, I also don’t want to choose one road due to some subconscious desire to rebel or break free.

Maybe all of this would make better sense if I am more explicit. Haha. So, in early April, I received an email about an opportunity to go to Haiti. Of course, I was absolutely psyched! I immediately emailed one of the directors for  more information on the program, but he never answered me back. After a few more inquiries with no replies, I wrote it of as an impossibility and forgot about it. A month later, I received another email about the program from another school department and this time the directors of the program would be visiting to hold a meeting about the program. After learning more about it, I decided I wanted to go! The program is not related to any of my immediate academic interests (health, health care), but would still give me the opportunity to interact with native Haitians, learn about their experiences living in Haiti, and improve my Haitian Creole (very important!). In fact, I’m hoping that 1) independently continuing on in my Haitian Creole textbooks + 2) 3-weeks of practice with native Haitians will allow me to skip the second level of Haitian Creole and go on to the third! (Here’s hoping.) Besides language, it may also help me further develop a non-profit idea that God gave me a few weeks ago.

So when I don’t think about the potential danger, I am so excited to go. I have been able to bring my mom on-board, but I can tell she is still very concerned. But I just don’t want my fear to limit me. I feel like I am so fearful of… everything, practically! And that is no way to live. Since high school, I have had an immense desire to work abroad with communities in extreme poverty. But over the years, I have seen that goal uprooted by fear. My mom has had angst about this goal and has pushed me to consider staying in the US instead. Her reasons are sound:  “There is so much poverty here. People need help here. Why are you running to another country when people in your own country are in need?” Logically, that makes perfect sense to me. But it doesn’t erase the pang in my heart to do something for those abroad. I feel like I need an experience in order to confirm either God’s calling for me to serve abroad or His intention for me to serve populations in the US. I just don’t want fear to usurp the decision and rob me of clarity.

Last night, I shared some of this with an old friend who I haven’t seen in… at least 2 years! We had a wonderful conversation. And I realized how much I have changed as a person through my conversation with her. I am so much more open and talkative now… but I’ll spare you details on that. Maybe for another post 🙂 But, yes… our conversation was so encouraging. She went to Haiti last year and was able to share about her emotional transition to living/working in the country. It was especially comforting to me that she could relate to my expressed desire to have an experience to call my own, one that would positively challenge me to grow and become independent, and one that would give me clarity on where to go from here (international vs. domestic). After listening, she strongly encouraged me to go and embrace this opportunity. When I push the fear aside, I feel that it is the right thing for me to do and I believe that it will be a positive experience for me.

So what does all of this have to do with Music Monday? Well, last night my friend told me about Brooke Fraser’s solo album, Albertine. You brothers and sisters out there may know Brooke from Hillsong United. She’s the front-woman for the songs “None But Jesus” and “Lord of Lords.” Well her solo album is absolutely beautiful and I have especially fallen in love with the title track, “Albertine.” In 2005, Brooke went to Rwanda to work with World Vision. In her visit to a Rwandan orphanage, she met Albertine, a young girl who was orphaned by the 1993-94 Rwandan genocides. This song is a promise to Albertine and this album is dedicated to her.

This song (especially the chorus) expresses my exact sentiments about engaging work in the international community. After learning about disparity, how can you just sit down and do nothing? And in doing nothing, how is your mind not plagued by the truth and how are you not guilted by your unwillingness to do your part to help?

I have a dear friend at school who seems fascinated by my interest in Haiti. Because I have no direct connection to the country, he cannot understand why I feel compelled to help them. Akin to Brooke’s chorus, because I know the history of injustice the country has experienced and know of the extreme poverty that millions of Haitians live daily, poverty that their parents lived and their parents before them, and poverty that their children will have no choice but to endure… how can I not be responsible to do something? I may not have seen this (yet) with my naked eyes, but isn’t the knowledge that it exists enough to be mobilized to do my part?

“Albertine”

I am sitting still
I think of Angelique
Her mother’s voice over me
And the bullets in the wall where it fell silent
And on a thousandth hill, I think of Albertine
There in her eyes what I don’t see with my own

[CHORUS]

Rwanda
Now that I have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead
Now that I have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are

I am on a plane across a distant sea
But I carry you in me
and the dust on, the dust on, the dust on, the dust on, the dust on my feet

[CHORUS]

[BRIGDE]
I will tell the world, I will tell them where I’ve been
I will keep my word
I will tell them Albertine

[CHORUS]

I am on a stage, a thousand eyes on me
I will tell them, Albertine
I will tell them, Albertine

Tabs“Albertine” @ UltimateGuitar.com

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Worship of the Day: “Divine Romance” by Phil Wickham

the fullness of Your grace is here with me
the richness of Your beauty is all i see
the brightness of Your glory has arrived
in your presence, God, i am completely satisfied

for You i sing, i dance
rejoice in this divine romance
lift my heart and my hands
to show my love

a deep, deep flood; an ocean flows from you
a deep, deep love; yeah, it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood has washed my guilty life
in Your presence, God, i am completely satisfied

for You i sing, i dance
rejoice in this divine romance
lift my heart and my hands
to show my love

~ Phil Wickham, “Divine Romance,” Phil Wickham

Adorable Post of the Day: Tan Hong Ming in Love

I totally stole this from Sunnie’s page, but it is just the most adorable thing. The purity of children! All they see is love. This just melts my heart!

Although I must say it is hilarious that the reasons he lists for liking her are all superficial. Her earrings, her hair, her pretty face. Hahaha… boys…

Music Monday: “Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop” by Landon Pigg

I just realized that I have been posting a lot of music on here, so I thought maybe I should try something new by having “Music Mondays.” Every Monday, I’ll share my new musical obsession. Shouldn’t be too difficult since I seem to discover at least 3 or 4 new artists/bands every week 🙂 I just have to make sure to remember…

But my weekend obsession was Landon Pigg’s “Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop.” It’s a simple song about recognizing love in a common, frequented place and likely with someone you’ve overlooked before. The melody and lyrics are so endearing and Pigg’s voice seems so honest as he lays his heart on the line. I really like it. You’ve likely heard it in the AT&T commercial (see below).

Sidenote: AT&T has the best coverage. Just putting that out there. I get service everywhere.

And here is Landon’s music video:

“By Your Side” – Tenth Avenue North

God is so good. I’m going through a period of brokenness right now and I really needed this song. I found it randomly last night while listening to a stream of music on Imeem and have had it on repeat ever since! 🙂 I hope you enjoy and are blessed!

why are you striving these days?
why are you trying to earn grace?
why are you crying?
let me lift up your face
just don’t turn away

why are you looking for love?
why are you still searching
as if i’m not enough?
to where will you go, child?
tell me, where will you run
to where will you run?

’cause i’ll be by your side wherever you fall
in dead of night, whenever you call
and please don’t fight
these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

look at these hands at my side
they swallowed the grave on that night
when i drank the world’s sin
so i could carry you in
and give you life
i wanna give you life

and i’ll by your side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight

’cause I, I love you!
and i want you to know!
that I, yeah, I love you!
I’ll never let you go!
No! No!

and I’ll be by your side wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side, wherever you fall
in the dead of night whenever you call
and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you
and my hands are holding you

here at my side
my hands are holding you
oh

“Turnstile” by Danyew

I love this song. I think every one can identify with it on some level. We can see it as  God expressing His eternal love for us, His children (esp. the chorus)! Or, as a devoted love from one person to another. No matter the context, these words are beautifully precious.

If you haven’t downloaded it, you can see Danyew’s studio performance of the song here:

“Turnstile” Studio Performance

I’m a turnstile
Counting up the days
Since I have seen your face
It’s been a long while
Though many things have changed
Our love remains the same
Our love remains the same

I want you like the first time I saw you
Want you like a shooting star
Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own
I love you like there is no tomorrow
Love you through the joy or sorrow
Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own

I want you more than you will ever know

Nobody
No not a single soul
Could ever take away
My love for you
Yeah, every single day
I promise to be true
My love I give to you

I want you like the first time I saw you
Want you like a shooting star
Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own
I love you like there is no tomorrow
Love you through the joy or sorrow
Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own

I want you more than you will ever know

I want you like the first time I saw you
Want you like a  shooting star
Oh! Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own
I love you like there is no tomorrow
Love you through the joy or sorrow
Love, you are my home
Oh, I want you for my own

I want you more than you will ever know

Resurrection Sunday, Resurrection Everyday

It is so appropriate that in this week’s Bible study, we went through 1 Corinthians 15:35-58. I was so blessed by verses 35-38, which state:

35But someone may ask, “How are the dead raised? With what kind of body will they come?” 36How foolish! What you sow does not come to life unless it dies. 37When you sow, you do not plant the body that will be, but just a seed, perhaps of wheat or of something else. 38But God gives it a body as He has determined, and to each kind of seed He gives its own body.”

This signifies that resurrection is alive and is a process manifested in our lives. A seed does not become a plant instantaneously. No, rather it first must die, and then must undergo a growing process before it sprouts from the earth in its plant form. It is the same for us. We  still in our original form:  our natural bodies. So we must be like the seed and die to our sinfulness and resurrect a spiritual lifestyle. Just as Christ’s sin-filled body on the cross died and resurrected to its spiritual form, we must strive to die to our sinful nature and live His will in our lives. This resurrection is a process because we must do this everyday. We must daily remember Christ’s sacrifice and strive to live such sacrifice in our own lives.

Thus, I would encourage you to use Resurrection Sunday as a day to:

1) to reflect on Christ’s defeat over our death/sin in order to rectify and reconnect us to God,

2) to gain renewed drive and inspiration for our individual, daily deaths to sin and daily resurrection in Christian living, and,

3) to look forward to the completion of our resurrection process with Christ’s 2nd coming, when the dead in Christ shall be resurrected and the living transfigured to their spiritual bodies ( 1 Cor 15:52).

Thank you my Christ, my All for Your sacrifice. Thank You, God, for loving  me so much and desiring to be with me so much that You would give Your only Son to set me free. His Resurrection is for me, but His Resurrection and my future resurrection are for You as well, that they would make a way for us to be together forever. I praise You God that You would view my salvation with such importance, that You would think of me, that You would die for me. I am overwhelmed by Your Love. THANK YOU!